Well here we are again folks, at the end/beginning of another year. Where on earth does time go? Last year went wayyyyy too fast! Doesn’t seem a minute since this time last year when I was setting some goals (not New Years resolutions!!) for 2016. If you remember (or just go and re read the post!!) then you will know that I wanted to be able to do a handstand or the splits. Sadly the year hasn’t quite panned out as I wanted it to and I still have a way to go. All the health improvements that I had been experiencing seemed to grind to a halt mid-2016 and the rest of the year has been spent leading a merry dance trying to find the path to feeling better! I’m not sure I’m actually on that path yet but I’ve managed to carve out a small footpath where I don’t feel too bad.
I’m slightly frustrated that a lot of the time I’ve been too tired or feeling too crappy to work on the stretches for my splits, but I’m not disappointed or beating myself up. I haven’t given up and tossed the idea aside with a ‘well it was a silly idea anyway’ kind of gesture, which I may have done in the past. The goal is still very much in my head but as I’ve said many times on my blog, I’m learning to have patience! Ha! Actually, I’m being forced to learn the art of patience! It doesn’t come easy to me I’m an all or nothing kind of gal and I don’t really see that changing in the near future. I will do the splits at some point, even if I’m in my eighties! Lol! Although I’d like to think it’d be before then! I’ve made a little progress and am more flexible than I was! (Just ignore the dirty feet! I like walking barefoot and this was at the end of summer)
I dislike the idea of New Year resolutions. Grand gestures that don’t last or vague ideas that you think will improve your quality of life but rarely do they live up to the hype – that’s if they even last a week! The word resolution is a strange one, with its’ meaning being a firm decision to do or not to do something, or the quality of being determined or resolute. What I mean by strange is that, for me at least, it doesn’t conjure up the feeling of being determined, or of wanting a goal so badly that you can’t imagine not obtaining it. These are the qualities you need to feel about something if you really want to obtain it. A feeling of fire in your belly! This is how I feel about getting my health back, and doing the splits (and a handstand). I couldn’t explain to you why the splits/handstand are so important to me but that doesn’t really matter I guess, they are just goals, in my head, that one day I will reach!
There will be no ‘new’ me in the New Year. What does that even mean anyway? That the me of now isn’t good enough? Good enough for what? I’m me! The me that dives into things whole heartedly (even when it ends in trouble), I’m silly, sometimes (often!) weird, I laugh at my own jokes, I talk out loud to myself all the time (sometimes in a Yorkshire accent (my parents were from Yorkshire!) as a joke), I have silly ideas, I like to travel (we take our cat too!!), I like to go out at 11pm if I think there is a chance we can see the northern lights (even though we usually end up staring into a dark sky, not seeing much!!) and a whole host of other things that just make me, well, me really!
There will be no ‘new’ me in the New Year. What does that even mean anyway? That the me of now isn’t good enough? Good enough for what? I’m me! The me that dives into things whole heartedly (even when it ends in trouble), I’m silly, sometimes (often!) weird, I laugh at my own jokes, I talk out loud to myself all the time (sometimes in a Yorkshire accent (my parents were from Yorkshire!) as a joke), I have silly ideas, I like to travel (we take our cat too!!), I like to go out at 11pm if I think there is a chance we can see the northern lights (even though we usually end up staring into a dark sky, not seeing much!!) and a whole host of other things that just make me, well, me really!
The same goes for when people say to me ‘ah, I feel like we’re getting the old Karen back now’. No, you’re not! You can’t go back, ever! I’m only moving forward, ever evolving, ever changing, with newer, sometimes even sillier ideas! And that’s the way I like it. Maybe they just mean that I’m a bit less ill now and I function better than I did a few years ago (can’t believe it’s coming up to 4 years since I really crashed and burned) but even before that I was heading downhill for several years, making myself ill, and losing my sense of humour. Anyway, even if I could, I would never choose to go back. It’s made me who I am today and I like me! So there!
Maybe, if you absolutely have to make New Year’s resolutions then you could make ones that include being kinder to yourself, not making yourself into a newer model, or learn a bit about cell physiology so you don’t fall for all the hype/baloney that the media constantly throws our way!
Either way, thanks to everyone who’s read my blog posts and followed my journey throughout 2016. Here’s to 2017, may it be healthy (stay away from mainstream crap information!!) and happy for all of you!
Maybe, if you absolutely have to make New Year’s resolutions then you could make ones that include being kinder to yourself, not making yourself into a newer model, or learn a bit about cell physiology so you don’t fall for all the hype/baloney that the media constantly throws our way!
Either way, thanks to everyone who’s read my blog posts and followed my journey throughout 2016. Here’s to 2017, may it be healthy (stay away from mainstream crap information!!) and happy for all of you!
My 2017 is off to a fantastic start by seeing the northern lights whilst staying in Findochty. It’s going to be hard to top that but I’m going to try!! I’ll be putting all my latest trials and tribulations with regard to my health in a blog piece soon.
Happy New Year!
Take care, Karen x
Happy New Year!
Take care, Karen x
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